From day one I talked about getting out,
But not forgetting about,
How my worst fears are letting out.
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness,
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die?
Now talking's just a waste of breath,
And living's just a waste of death!
And why put a new address
On the same old loneliness?
And this is you and me, and me and you,
Until we got nothing left..
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
"Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute.. that's relativity" - Albert Einstein
Love. Hmm.
I've been thinking alot recently about what love really is. I'm studying sociology and read recently some stuff by Anthony Giddens about the different types of love and which ones tend to last longer in relationships. You should look it up it's pretty cool to read.
But anyways. I have always kind of wondered about love and how it looks so different in real life than it does in the movies and in fairy tales and everything else. We are constantly thrust these images of epic romances where 2 people fall in love but it draws a problem for them yet they manage to find each other in the end.
This is a load of crap.
When I see love in real life, from the marriages in my family etc. I don't see any of this. Fighting for each other or the need to otherwise. I just see people working to build a relationship and life together.
Which is quite disappointing. I think, like most girls, I wanna fall in love like the movies. I want a prince charming, and a happily ever after. I guess I'm delusional. But if believing in love makes me stupid then I don't want to be smart lol.
I mean no matter how cheesy, unbelievable or unrealistic the romantic comedy or romance movie is, there can't be anyone watching who doesn't think, "I wish I had that." And even if you do have a bf/gf, is it as good a story as the ones we see and read.
Love stories, I think, will lead me to disappointment in my life 'cause I always picture my life as finish school go to uni, meet a guy and fall in love. Easy peasy. But I am told that it doesn't work like that
Which is most unfortunate :/
I've been thinking alot recently about what love really is. I'm studying sociology and read recently some stuff by Anthony Giddens about the different types of love and which ones tend to last longer in relationships. You should look it up it's pretty cool to read.
But anyways. I have always kind of wondered about love and how it looks so different in real life than it does in the movies and in fairy tales and everything else. We are constantly thrust these images of epic romances where 2 people fall in love but it draws a problem for them yet they manage to find each other in the end.
This is a load of crap.
When I see love in real life, from the marriages in my family etc. I don't see any of this. Fighting for each other or the need to otherwise. I just see people working to build a relationship and life together.
Which is quite disappointing. I think, like most girls, I wanna fall in love like the movies. I want a prince charming, and a happily ever after. I guess I'm delusional. But if believing in love makes me stupid then I don't want to be smart lol.
I mean no matter how cheesy, unbelievable or unrealistic the romantic comedy or romance movie is, there can't be anyone watching who doesn't think, "I wish I had that." And even if you do have a bf/gf, is it as good a story as the ones we see and read.
Love stories, I think, will lead me to disappointment in my life 'cause I always picture my life as finish school go to uni, meet a guy and fall in love. Easy peasy. But I am told that it doesn't work like that
Which is most unfortunate :/
Friday, 3 December 2010
I got your back jack.. Bitches be crazy.
Holla,
Okay. So today I'm gonna talk about my family :).
I have 2 brothers. Ciaran (18) and Paul (14). I live with my mum and step daddy. Paul is my half brother which isn't surprising since he's ginger lol. My biological father is out of the picture and has been out of mine atleast, for about 7 years. He's an asshole. Simple as. I wish I could tell you he beat me and my brother and mum but no. Neither did he abandon us with shit all to live with. He just treated my mum like she wasn't important. He was a agressive but not violent and arrogant about it. I hate him.
He married his wife Selma whose turkish about 6 years ago and they now have a daughter together.. her name is Nazli. He told me in february they were moving to London but I don't know where they are these days.
I've been wondering recently, if Nazli looks like me. If she is the same as I was when I was a baby. Will she like the same music that I do? Will I ever meet her? Will they tell her about me? Would she want to meet me?
I've always wanted a little sister lol. Just one from my mum and step daddy.
My step daddy Dave, is the best man in the world. I love him and to me he his my real daddy. That's why I took his last name when he married my mum Chrissie 11 years ago. He doesn't talk alot but when he does he's funny and we have a good relationship, except when we fight of course. He gives me lifts places when I need them. He punches me back when I try ro act funny. When I go to give him a knuckle bump he does it really hard then says "When will you learn.." lol
He's awesome :D
My mum is my best friend. We don't always get along but I know I can tell her eveything and she'll get it. She gets when I'm depressed and stressed and knows how to tell me to take a step back look at everything and relax, which works. She helped me when I had a slight freak out about G.C.S.Es and sat with me for 2 hours helping me learn irish conversations. She rewrote all my english, sociology, history and any other essay I had to make sure I wasn't writing crap.
She's absolutely golden.
Don't get the wrong idea, we're far from perfect. We rarely all get along. We don't earn alot of money and can't afford big expensive things, but my parents have done their best to give me and my brothers everything we want and I hope they know...
I AM GRATEFUL.
Okay. So today I'm gonna talk about my family :).
I have 2 brothers. Ciaran (18) and Paul (14). I live with my mum and step daddy. Paul is my half brother which isn't surprising since he's ginger lol. My biological father is out of the picture and has been out of mine atleast, for about 7 years. He's an asshole. Simple as. I wish I could tell you he beat me and my brother and mum but no. Neither did he abandon us with shit all to live with. He just treated my mum like she wasn't important. He was a agressive but not violent and arrogant about it. I hate him.
He married his wife Selma whose turkish about 6 years ago and they now have a daughter together.. her name is Nazli. He told me in february they were moving to London but I don't know where they are these days.
I've been wondering recently, if Nazli looks like me. If she is the same as I was when I was a baby. Will she like the same music that I do? Will I ever meet her? Will they tell her about me? Would she want to meet me?
I've always wanted a little sister lol. Just one from my mum and step daddy.
My step daddy Dave, is the best man in the world. I love him and to me he his my real daddy. That's why I took his last name when he married my mum Chrissie 11 years ago. He doesn't talk alot but when he does he's funny and we have a good relationship, except when we fight of course. He gives me lifts places when I need them. He punches me back when I try ro act funny. When I go to give him a knuckle bump he does it really hard then says "When will you learn.." lol
He's awesome :D
My mum is my best friend. We don't always get along but I know I can tell her eveything and she'll get it. She gets when I'm depressed and stressed and knows how to tell me to take a step back look at everything and relax, which works. She helped me when I had a slight freak out about G.C.S.Es and sat with me for 2 hours helping me learn irish conversations. She rewrote all my english, sociology, history and any other essay I had to make sure I wasn't writing crap.
She's absolutely golden.
Don't get the wrong idea, we're far from perfect. We rarely all get along. We don't earn alot of money and can't afford big expensive things, but my parents have done their best to give me and my brothers everything we want and I hope they know...
I AM GRATEFUL.
Thursday, 2 December 2010
Bored-um
What up?
Snow in Belfast, FINALLY! It's been 2 weeks of pathetic slush and ice.. real snow this time. Yeaaaaaah.
Walked home from school today with this girl Lisa today. She moved to Belfast from Dublin like 4 years ago and we've been friends ever since.. except now she is startin' to really get on my nerves!!
Do you ever get those people who just say a little comment and you automatically get annoyed? She's that for me.. I dunno what it is. I mean sometimes we can talk for ages as we're the only ones in our group of friends in school who share a mutual love for Gossip Girl. But she is a top level melter (melter is an annoying person). We'd be sitting in class and I have a bit of a stutter and can't get out what I'm saying and when I ask the teacher a question she laughs and I'm like "Mate wtf?" Ugh...!
Maybe it's just me and my low tolerance for people. I am quick to get annoyed and even quicker to be annoying. That's something that I've tried to cut down on; my stupid sarcasm. I am like Chandler Bing only not a guy and ya' know.. better looking ;).. There I go again! You'll get used to it.
Do you ever wonder how often you annoy your friends and they just sit there and let it go? Like you make a stupid joke that isn't funny and they laugh anyways? I do. It makes me wonder which ones will sit there gladly letting you tell your jokes, soke their shirts with your tears, bruise their arms with your punches when playing "Yellow car! No punch back!!" and which ones will sit there and think "Oh shoite here she goes again".
How do you know the difference between a real and fake friend? Does it hurt more when you realise you've lost a real or fake friend.. 'cause to me it all hurts just the same. With a fake friend, you have to deal with the fact that they were using you. They didn't or don't care who you are or what you are. They were just there for their own selfish agenda.
On the other hand you have a true friend. The ones you have so many memories with that some of them start to blur and become the same story. The ones who will sit and quote stupid movies and tv shows with you until you get thrown out of class. The ones that don't care that you're not perfect. The ones who will miss you if you ever went away. The ones I usually fight with everyday and make up with 10 seconds later.
I sometimes wonder if I will ever lose any of my friends. I wonder if they ever think of this too. Probably not 'cause I'm crazy :)
Snow in Belfast, FINALLY! It's been 2 weeks of pathetic slush and ice.. real snow this time. Yeaaaaaah.
Walked home from school today with this girl Lisa today. She moved to Belfast from Dublin like 4 years ago and we've been friends ever since.. except now she is startin' to really get on my nerves!!
Do you ever get those people who just say a little comment and you automatically get annoyed? She's that for me.. I dunno what it is. I mean sometimes we can talk for ages as we're the only ones in our group of friends in school who share a mutual love for Gossip Girl. But she is a top level melter (melter is an annoying person). We'd be sitting in class and I have a bit of a stutter and can't get out what I'm saying and when I ask the teacher a question she laughs and I'm like "Mate wtf?" Ugh...!
Maybe it's just me and my low tolerance for people. I am quick to get annoyed and even quicker to be annoying. That's something that I've tried to cut down on; my stupid sarcasm. I am like Chandler Bing only not a guy and ya' know.. better looking ;).. There I go again! You'll get used to it.
Do you ever wonder how often you annoy your friends and they just sit there and let it go? Like you make a stupid joke that isn't funny and they laugh anyways? I do. It makes me wonder which ones will sit there gladly letting you tell your jokes, soke their shirts with your tears, bruise their arms with your punches when playing "Yellow car! No punch back!!" and which ones will sit there and think "Oh shoite here she goes again".
How do you know the difference between a real and fake friend? Does it hurt more when you realise you've lost a real or fake friend.. 'cause to me it all hurts just the same. With a fake friend, you have to deal with the fact that they were using you. They didn't or don't care who you are or what you are. They were just there for their own selfish agenda.
On the other hand you have a true friend. The ones you have so many memories with that some of them start to blur and become the same story. The ones who will sit and quote stupid movies and tv shows with you until you get thrown out of class. The ones that don't care that you're not perfect. The ones who will miss you if you ever went away. The ones I usually fight with everyday and make up with 10 seconds later.
I sometimes wonder if I will ever lose any of my friends. I wonder if they ever think of this too. Probably not 'cause I'm crazy :)
Wednesday, 1 December 2010
New Blogger right here
Okay, so basically I'm here to use this blog as a place to vent about life and just write about the silly little no where near mature thoughts that come into my head.
So, how about I introduce myself? Is that how this works? Meh we'll do that.
Okay so I'm gonna use fake names for everyone including myself as, well, I'm a chicken shit and don't want my buddies seeing this blog lol.
So I am Naomi :). I am 16 (17 soon) I am from Belfast, Northern Ireland and am a reluctant Catholic. I go to an all girls catholic school, and before you all go and get pervy on me, no I'm not a lesbian nor was I sent to my school because I was chucked out of my last one.. It's just one of the better schools in my area.
I love music. I listen, play and write music everyday of the week. I love all types of music but especially rock, metal, 80s, grunge, pop punk, punk rock, and anything by taylr swift 'cause she's awesome :). I play guitar, bass and I used to play the violin but quit when I was 11.
If I could be anything in the world.. absolutely anything?
I would be free...
So, how about I introduce myself? Is that how this works? Meh we'll do that.
Okay so I'm gonna use fake names for everyone including myself as, well, I'm a chicken shit and don't want my buddies seeing this blog lol.
So I am Naomi :). I am 16 (17 soon) I am from Belfast, Northern Ireland and am a reluctant Catholic. I go to an all girls catholic school, and before you all go and get pervy on me, no I'm not a lesbian nor was I sent to my school because I was chucked out of my last one.. It's just one of the better schools in my area.
I love music. I listen, play and write music everyday of the week. I love all types of music but especially rock, metal, 80s, grunge, pop punk, punk rock, and anything by taylr swift 'cause she's awesome :). I play guitar, bass and I used to play the violin but quit when I was 11.
If I could be anything in the world.. absolutely anything?
I would be free...
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